Sorry...

Sorry, such a simple word, yet hard to say sometimes.
especially to someone so close.

my partner.
he is so nice to me.
nice but sometimes annoying, too.
and i say something more than necessary, and hurt his feelings.
as if im taking all my frustration out on him.
still, he is forgiving....most of the time.

how nice it would be, i wonder, if i could just say " im sorry", when i have to say the words.
and why its so hard for me to say that?
the worst thing is that this makes me feel im not a good person.
and i do not deserve him.
he can do better.
he deserves a better relationship.
and im making his life miserable.
all these thoughts come to my mind.

then why dont you just say "im sorry" ???
dont know.
its just hard.....